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benim donemsel siirlerim vardir. Genel olarak sevdigim, ama hayatin bazi donemlerinde -ki bu donemler ayni saat icinde bile olabilir- bu siirlerin dogrulugunu savunurum, bazi donemlerinde ise tamamen zittini savunurum. Karisik oldu di mi? Bir ornek vereyim o zaman.

I do have a periodical relationships with some poems, poems that I love. Sometimes I do believe in them, I believe they reflect the reality. But sometimes, I support the opposite -these change in the attitude towards a poem can happen in an hour. A little bit confusing, no? Let me explain with an example.

Bir Nazim siirini ele alalim. Oncelikle belirteyim, Nazim'a karsi degil bu degerlendirme. Sadece kafamdan ayni anda nasil degisik dusuncelerin gectigine bir ornek, Nazim'in bu misralari yazdigi zaman ve mekandan bagimsiz olarak...

Think about a particular Nazim poem. But before, let me note that the following are not at all a criticism of Nazim. They are just an example of mixed feelings and thoughts my mind can create simultaneously, independent of the time and the conditions Nazim was in, when he wrote these lines...

Nazim der ki: En guzel deniz: henuz gidilmemis olandir...

Nazim says: The most beautiful see: One that hasn't been traveled to yet (sorry for the any possible errors in translation)

Bir koldan, kalbim veya beynim der ki: Neden gelecekte gidilecek denizi dusunup, su andaki denizin tadini cikarmayalim? Neden insanlar ani yasamak yerine gelecegi dusunuyor?

On one hand, my heart, or my brain says: Why do we think about the sea we will travel in the future, instead of enjoying the one we have right now? Why do people worry about future instead of enjoying the moment we are at, right now?

Diger bir yandan da, ne kadar umut doludur bu misralar. Hele ki biraz umutsuzluk varsa hayatimizda. Kaybedilen -belki zaman, belki bambaska birsey- icin uzuluyorsa biri, ilac gibi gelebilir bu fikir...

On the other hand, these lines are full of hope. Especially we think there is no hope in our lives. Or, if someone is mourning for a loss -may be time, may be something else-, the idea of the poem can be the cure for them.

Bu bir anlam ifade etti mi kimse icin bilmiyorum, ama benim icin ediyor. Tabi ben kendimin ne demek istedigini biliyorum :)

I don't know if these make sense for anyone, but it does for me. Of course, I do know what I want to say :)

Bu iki koldan hayata bakis benim icin genel aslinda. Herkes icin genel olduguna inaniyorum. Herkesin bir olay karsisinda ya ona karsi durmakla, ya da yenilmekle (yenilmek biraz agir oldu aslinda) esdeger olan bir secimi var. Kimileri icin bunun farkinda olmak daha kolay. Ama asil zorluk hangi yonu sececeginle ilgili.

This two-handed views of anything in life is something more general in my life, not limited to poems. I believe this is true for everyone. Everybody has a choice between being strong or week against anything that happens. For some, it is easier to be aware of the choices. But the hardness arises because of which path to choose.

"path to choose" kalibi bana bir sarkiyi hatirlatti. Benim yabanci muzik kulturumun gelistiricisi l.'den dolayi bildigim bir sarkiyi... Madem Turkce'den Ingilizce'ye ceviri yapiyorum, tersini de yapmak lazim o zaman. Olasi ceviri hatalarinin kusuruna bakmayin artik :)

Evet, gidebilecegin iki yol var
Ama uzun vadede
Yolunu degistirmek icin hala zaman var

"path to choose" reminded me of a song. A song I learned from l., the one who improves my "foreign" music knowledge and culture. Since I translate from Turkish to English, I did the same for the lyrics above :)

Yes, there are two paths you can go by
But in the long run
There's still time to change the road you're on.

Uzun yazilarin sonuna bir hediye eklemek adet oldu :) . Bu sefer de oyle olsun. Bu daha cok l. icin gelsin ama, onun Led Zepelin sevgisinden...

It is my tradition now, to attach a "gift" at the end of long posts. So, lets keep the tradition going this time as well. But, this "gift" is more for l., because of his love of Led Zepelin...



Son bir sey, yazmaya basladigimda bu sabah, kendimi kotu hissediyordum. Ama simdi, cok daha iyiyim. Sevgidim seylerin ve insanlarin sayesinde...

One last note, I was feeling down when I started writing this morning. But now, I feel much better... Thanks to things and people that I love....